Updated: Jun 4
I am just a normal teenager who has a heart, a soul and a brain just
like you all, but the only difference is that we all think differently
about ourselves and the world. I really want to talk about something
which happened in my life and changed it completely which still
affects me. I was really not happy to talk about this at the first place
but then I thought that if I will share my experiences with you all, you
will not do the same mistake that I did.
My heart stopped when I was just thirteen years old, looking back I
think that’s when I began to worry about what others thought of me.
I started seeing myself through their eyes. Soon, I began to shut out
my voice and started to listen to the voices of others. No one called
my name, neither did I! I completely went into darkness, where
there was no light to help me out. I started hating myself. I thought I
am just a useless person who cannot do anything right in life. I just
did not like me being myself. My parents expected a lot from me but
I couldn’t give them what they wanted and they started mocking me.
I was all alone. I remember, people treating like a voicemail. They
would behave so nicely in front of me but behind me they used to
hate me. I was all alone, but I didn’t stop because thankfully I had
one sanctuary which was Music.
I started listening to Music, through which I could understand myself
better. It helped me and told me that there still is voice in me which
says, stop worrying, speak up for yourself. The fact is It doesn’t
matter what your past was. Let the past be in past and let it go. What
matters is that where are you right now in your lie. If you struggle
talk to yourself. Wake up with an attitude of love and gratitude! Say
this to world “ITS MY TIME TO FLY HIGH!”
So often we try to move past our mistakes by saying things like, “that
wasn’t really me,” or “I was a different person back then.” The
brightest stars, your most visible and important features, are your
flaws and your mistakes.
Maybe I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. I
am who I am today, with all my faults. Tomorrow I might be a tiny bit
wiser, and that’s me, too. These faults and mistakes are what I am,
making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have
come to love myself for who I was, who I am, and who I hope to
Until you accept those darker aspects of yourself, the shadows
among the light, the “self” you love won’t be your true self but an
idealized version. That’s why loving yourself takes courage and
forgiveness. You need courage to face your true self with all your
flaws and imperfections and you need to have the compassion to
forgive yourself for them.